caught up

i am so type a. so apt to get caught up. got so absorbed in the frenzy of top scores and top schools and top tests and with getting back to the place i thought i would be in that life, that world, that place i lived before. i almost forgot that i don't want that thing anymore. i have spent five years finding balance and peace.

i want to reach for the stars still.

but different ones.

law school, yes. but one where i can grow and reach without all that go-go-go. 'cause in that environment i will be the best. i can't help but compete. and i have made the choice to leave that game.

so we are talking about maine again/still. a school that focuses on making a difference in the world. where i can bake and knit and breath.

i have worked hard for this life i have now. this pace.

and i don't want to leave.