ivan once said that i was a "people pleaser" but that i needed to learn what i need to please me.
ivan shot himself in the head.
shot
himself
in
the
head.
all the hungry makes me grumpy.
i need arms to fall into at the end of the day.
a promise that they won't ever ever go away.
this make-believe.
this promise against death and dying.
and it's always me to go.
giving giving giving and then giving up.
because i can't do everything.
ivan shot himself on his head.
the last thing he said to me was that he was glad i was home and safe.
he didn't tell me he was about to take that feeling of safety away from me.
and i can't seem to shake the meaninglessness that has come over my life.
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