kazakhstan

tomorrow it's on. kazakhstan. free falling. really getting away.

i am mostly excited. i don't have any idea how it will be. i like the not knowing. i like having no expectations. there will be an alphabet i can't read, a language i can't understand, food i won't dare eat, and open arms, open space and new faces and all the things that i need.

i want to talk all night and sleep all day.

i want to fall in love with kittens and black eagles and with me.

i am going to fall in love with the moment. i am going to let it sweep me away.

because here. that girl at the housewarming party. that voice on the phone. that soon to be ex-in-law. that "friend" wearing her moral overcoat. they wear me out.

it.
wears.
me.
out.