today i counted my expenses, my earnings, my this and that. divorce paper financials. it's really just a business transaction now. you owe me this for all these years. but the real gains, the real losses don't show up on these sheets. don't have anything to do with raises and bonuses and credit card bills. but it's harder to explain these other things.
it's harder to put into lists and dollars the wisdom that comes with confusing what feels safe for what is healthy.
and i am not afraid anymore. not of falling in love, not of being destroyed, not of being with someone who can see the real me.
and just maybe things like fate and soulmates aren't just storybook sweets.
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